Not Back.

As of this entry, I don't have friends anymore. I lost them all because I wasn't able to come to their party yesterday because there was this big conflict between me and my mom, and I'm sure as hell that nobody would even understand me. They would think that I slacked off, or just made up a story so I could find my way out of that party. But tell me, do friends even do that?

No. They don't. They don't lie about stuff like that. If I didn't intend to go to that party in the first place, I would tell you beforehand. And you can pretty much tell that I'm not lying because I told you all that I can't make it mere hours before the party. That's how things got so ugly right in the nick of time. You don't know how much your party means to me, how much I anticipated for it, how much excitement I felt for it, and how many preparations I made for it. Don't you guys ever think that I wanted that conflict to occur. That would be so rude and mean to me and my own mother. 

I just hope that you guys forgive me. 

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Third term already started a week ago, and get this - I'm still alive. Remember how the first week of my second term gave me the impeccable impression that it was the deadliest thing ever? I even made a letter to God for it, for Christ's sake. That was how grim the first few days of second term was. And the succeeding days also proved to support my first impression, as I sinked down in my own academic turmoil. I never even thought that I could get out alive from that term.

But I did. I really did.

Compared to last term which I took about 8 units of nothing but mathematics, I only have two math subjects (or 6 units) this term, namely: integral calculus, and that latter part of my ENGALG1, engineering algebra 2. But with those 8 units comes another batch of 8 units. 8 friggin units of science courses which are engineering physics and general chemistry, together with their respective laboratory classes. I wasn't supposed to take them both at the same time, because that would be instant hell for me. But since my friends opted to follow the flowchart which is stating that both chemistry and physics must be taken up in third term, I have to go with the college flow if I want to have at least one friend I could talk to in a course. Well yeah I'm an introvert, but I'm an f-ing chatterbox as well. I can't shut my mouth up for ten minutes, and this is beginning to be such a challenge. 

So yeah, the first few days are fine. Contrary to my days in Velasco, I am now confident that I can take back my slot in the dean's list, if I put my every effort into my studies. I have nice professors to go with nice classrooms; that's right, my classes are now back in Andrew building. This means that I don't have to climb my way to my classes, since there are elevators in the said building. I have nice professors, which is a relief because pernicious courses doesn't go well with fatal professors. That would be death right there and then. 

And since third term means that I won't get to spend my classes with the same people all over again, I have nice classmates too. They all come from different engineering blocks, and some were even from other colleges. I'm beginning to love this diversity thing.

So yeah. I'm very much hoping that my first impression will last till this term ends and thus conlcudes my first year in college. I badly want to be a dean's lister again and cut classes like there's no tomorrow.

Kidding. Of course I want the glory of it all.